Proverbs 2:2
For the Lord grants wisdom!
From his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
Wisdom is required for all situations that I find myself in these days.
Wisdom is needed to deal with relationship matters. People who I thought were friends, no family have left me bitterly disappointed and I am starting to question myself. My worthiness, my character. I need God’s wisdom.
In my professional life I find myself needing God and His wisdom more and more each day as I try so hard to get on top of everything. Pay what needs to be paid, give where I continue to want to give and work glorifying Him in all that I do.
In all things I want to follow His path for my life. In all things I need to remember that I am who I am and I need not change anything about me to impress or be loved. I deserve to be loved and respected as I am. I have come so far and someone telling me that our friendship needs to be less is not something that should lead me down this dark path yet again.
Oh the enemy knows where to strike in me to get me in heart. He chips away at my self worth. Chips away until there is nothing more but firewood kindling.
I know I am not blameless in life and actions. I know that I let me mouth run off on me sometimes. But when did it become a bad thing to speak ones mind? When did it become a bad thing to approach a friend about something in their actions that may be perceived incorrectly? Shouldn’t we try to be more honest and up front with our friends and family? I mean, wouldn’t we prefer they were honest with us?
When I am low or feeling unloved I need to remember to turn the God and His Word for comfort.
It is written
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
Psalm 139:13-14
This Scripture is on my bathroom mirror and is my prayer daily (or when I read it)
Psalm 139:23-24
Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
May it be the Prayer of us all.
Signing off for now.
You know you love me.
XoXo
